The past has been biting me in the ass, lately. It's really interesting how certain people stay with you long after they're gone. I miss you.

School is looming ever closer. It will certainly be an interesting year. Completely different from last which could be both good and bad. Hopefully this year will help me feel more secure. Who decided that in four years you basically have to decide your own fate? Since when is four years enough?

I celebrated my one year with my lovely Keith this past week. I made him a fifty-two reasons I love you book out of playing cards.



It was really fun, and it turned out pretty cute. Plus, it's way customized. Always nice to get something just for you. =) I also bought him the new Josh Kelley CD, Special Company. We both wanted that, so it was a present for me too. He took me out to dinner and showed up at work with these






So, that was sweet. I can't believe it's already been a year. Time flies. And my birthday is coming up. I'm almost 19. I feel like I'm getting older way too fast. I don't want to be an adult. The thought scares me.

Currently reading: Blindness

I said weekly, but there is literally nothing to report.

I'm working on my '52 reasons I love you' book for my one year anniversary with Keith. I'll post pictures of really cute pages when I'm done. It's looking really good so far.

I'm trying to be who I am without being embarrassed or making excuses. I will like what I like without fear, and I won't care if people judge me. If they're my friends and if they truly care about me, they won't judge me for what music I like to listen to, what shows I like to watch, etc. I'm trying to convince myself of that. It's harder than it sounds. I've spent my entire life trying to impress people, trying to seem cool. I refuse to let other people shape who I am.

Let's see how long I can keep that up for.

Other than that, there is nothing. I work; I hang out with friends and my boyfriend; I watch TV and surf the web; I read and sleep. I miss school, but not doing work. I would much rather spend my days making money and come home with nothing to do than go to class all day and then come home and have to read and study for those same classes. I am looking forward to this semester, though.

I spent last night talking to an old friend. It was nice to catch up. It's crazy to think about how much I've grown. I wonder what my middle school self would think of my college self. I wonder if that bitchy girl who tried to hard and cared too much would think I was cool now, would strive to be like me.

It's an interesting thought.

Wow it's been a long time! My apologies.

I said I'd update about Italy, but that never happened, so here it goes:

Italy is amazing. If there is one place in Italy you ever go, make it Venice. It's beautiful and rustic and exactly how you picture it which is wonderful. You wander around and get lost every single day. There's really nothing I've ever seen that compares to it. Rome is definitely always worth a trip too. It's so amazing to walk around and know that thousands of millions of people have walked in the same spot for thousands of years. And the juxtaposition of the ancient city with the modern one is just breathtaking. You'd think the modern world would take away from it, but it definitely doesn't. Florence was my least favorite. It was too much of just a modern city for me, though seeing the David was amazing. (You're not supposed to take pictures, but I totally did.) My advice would be to buy a Rick Steves book and download his podcasts for your iPod. You get your own self-guided tour for free with someone who really knows the best attractions and places to eat.

For now, I'm at home. Working at my dad's store . By the end of the summer, I'll have made a good chunk of change. I recently visited my mom up in Charleston, SC. Keith was sick for the first four days, and I rolled my ankle and couldn't walk for the last three. I watched lots of OnDemand movies on their huge HD TV. We also went to the Aquarium, which was pretty cool, but that was after I hurt myself, so I got to be that annoying person in the wheelchair.

Anyway, that's it for now. I'll try to get better about updating. I'll try for once a week. I don't normally do anything on Sunday mornings anyway. I'll leave you with my favorite Sunday past time: Post Secret.

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